Last break, in an effort to make home with my mom feel more like home my at David Street in Austin, I took string and extra christmas lights and hung them up over our back deck making a nifty little canopy. It lasted two days before the rain pulled it down into a tangled, dangling mess; A hodgepodge web. One that i've been too lazy to clean up. I just pass the tangled mess everyday, never choosing a time to take it down. As if the initial effort and the attempt last year means something and that one day it will neatly tighten and fix itself back up.
Little beautiful horny spiders took over my ugly oversized web and made little beautiful webs everywhere. Between the wonder of the morning and all the gentle dew shimmering (corny but perfectly descriptive) on all the webs, I couldn't get myself to move the strings and lights over to get to the bins. It would have destroyed too many webs for me to handle. I would have felt guilty.
So I took on the challenge. bag of organic matter in hand, I tiptoed, ducked, stepped over, swung, balance-beamed (along the railing) my way to the bins and back. I think I fucked up a baby web. I can handle that.
It took me around 10 minutes to decompose to decomposable. my tea, in my absence, was screeching and spitting at me in the kitchen. The teapot threw up half the tea on the stovetop. That burned, smoked, smelled. lovely.
There's a big spiderweb over our front door. It's been there for at least a week now. If I see it in the light, I carefully walk under. At night, I duck into our door where I think it might be. She says bye to me when I leave and welcomes me home when I come back. I know I'll be disappointed the day I get up and Charlotte isn't there. This particular gal I think is the reason I so painstakingly avoided the webs out back.
There are more webs in my everyday life than before. that's all.
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